Break Time

Taking a hiatus from blogging while life is crazy. I'll be back when I feel more stable. Love all. 

Growing is Changing: New Years or Not

Ive never actually made a New Years resolution. So one of my resolutions was to actually do the damn thing. Some of them are as simple as throwing out old socks and buying new ones and quit buying crappy coffee. Some of them are fun like going somewhere I've never been before or finally watching Scandal. And some of them are harder, like trying to break the habit of talking about my troubles. 

I really hate all of the negative energy that people put into New Years. Even I'm guilty. Whether is downing the last year or telling everyone else that they will never be better in the new year, I mean, why shouldn't we look forward to all reinventing a better us. That's hope. Why is everyone so determined to not hold onto hope. 

I for one hope that at the end of this year I won't be slamming it for all the shitty things that may or may not take place. Honestly I need a fresh start more than I probably even realize. I've finally managed a little bit of wiggle room in my life to do what I need to do for me. That's incredibly thrilling. Do not kill my vibe. 

I still want to push my honest and raw emotions out there for you all to relate to, but please don't be surprised to find me looking for the positive more often. I think it's due time. 

If you don't know much about astrology any deeper than what your sign is, I strongly encourage you to look into it. It's what I suppose you could say a hobby of mine because it opens up a world that feels like the closest thing we will ever see to magic. Astrology can dive so much deeper than a monthly or daily prediction sounding like something you will find in a fortune cookie. If you're looking for the proper information you can find out so much more about you that will give you comfort with in the answers. One of my favorite concepts is The Return of Saturn. Which basically incases when troubled times will come in your life and what you should prepare for. Right now. In my very early twenties I'm approaching my 3/4 Saturn return cycle which is a heavy weight realizing the future and also supposed to be when I let go of some of the things from my childhood. Actually, I'm saying I, when in fact this is the same for everyone at the ages 20 and 21. We all have life altering points were we grow, some more intence (raises hand) and some more subtle and easy. And this just provides an explination that may or may not be real but I couldn't give a flying fuck any way. I go with it. 

So this year will change me no matter which way I'm looking at it. Maybe just because I believe it will.