I'll Tell You How I Really Feel. About Target.

I try very hard to not get consumed by how much I want a possession but every time I walk into Target, that feeling runs out the door I walked into. Every time I scan the isles with my hubby I look back every forty or so seconds to say, "Baby can we please just win the lottery?!" 

Honestly I buy everything from my groceries, my clothes, hubby's clothes, and baby's clothes, toys, electronics, makeup, furniture, diapers, just everything comes from Target. It's hard to walk through my home a spot something that wasn't bought at Target. 

This time of the year though, this carol singing, family gathering, flurries falling, time of the year is the absolute worst for me. I'm just being real when I say that I don't have the funds for what I'd really like to do every time I walk into a Target, our military family of three stays on a strict budget and there's only a tiny bit of wiggle room allowed where I have to decide what's really important to splurge on. Maybe taking the little one to the Children's Museum or surprising hubby with that game he has been talking about all year or a bit of extra savings for a vacation. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining, we are very happy and fortunate to have what we do. But when I go to Target, the humble and reasonable Jessica is sucked out of my soul, I swear it. 

The Christmas trees all lit up begging to be standing seven and a half foot tall in my living room. The Disney baby dolls want me to wrap them up in the woodland style wrapping paper I saw back on isle D23. How will the baby ever get through the winter with out that tiny tweed coat with the over sized buttons?! That throw is begging for me to wrap it around my shoulders while sipping that Archer Farms brand hot chocolate out of those Threshold teacups and it would look darling on my couch. On second thought, I should just buy a new couch too! Oh, it's so easy to get carried away. 

Now outside of a Target when I regain my composure, I know that the holiday season isn't about wanting things, it's about giving things, so I try to avoid stepping in as much as I can. 

I guess all it really comes down to is that if Santa was real, I'd be a good girl all year long to get some Threshold goodies under my *Target bought* Christmas tree. 

Does anyone else feel this passionately about any place or places they shop? I'd love to hear from some readers if there's any!